I'm in love with someone that can't or won't love me back.
I'm not the only lesbian to fall in love with a straight girl but this just sucks
as I help her figure out what to do with her on again off again boyfriend and we have already decided that is she was gay or me a man we would be perfect.
the Cosmo's hate me!

2 years later?

so I'm in school. my second year in nursing school and its kicking my ass!!!!!!! no one tells you how hard this year is cause no one would ever go!!!!!!!! besides this I'm getting good grades and im studying my ass off (LITTERLY). Newly single and extreamly happy about it and livin my life. wow so I have amazing friends who have really stuck with me through the breakup and have helped me so much. my best friend T was right there from the start let me cry on her sholder and let me vent and get all my anger out. She was the one that insisted that we go out to celebrate my one month single and you know what I had a blast!!!!!!!!!!
Right now life is pretty good. just finished a MAJOR paper and a not so major paper in one night!!!!!!
just wanted to stop in and leave a note cause I missed this!
thanks
N

Femimist?

All that is required to be a feminist is to believe in the power, potential, and perspicacity of women. Even if we exist in wholesale ignorance of our own strength, to recognize it in other women is to acknowledge it in ourselves. And when, either by design or happenstance, we are confronted with something that forces us to draw upon reserves we did not know we possessed, we meet the challenge with the quiet but fierce determination that is the legacy of our sex.Elizabeth I was, in many ways, the original feminist though neither the concept nor the word existed during the time of her reign. In an era when women were mere chattel, she was absolutely convinced of her sovereignty. In an age when women were thought indolent, inconstant and insipid, she was confident in her intellect and the rectitude of her rule. Elizabeth did not live by a laundry list of principles that would have allowed her to proclaim some hackneyed ideological designation. The irony would have amused her as much as the need for precepts would have mystified her. She simply lived her life as she saw fit, even constrained as she was by convention and religious dogma. Long before Elizabeth Cady Stanton, Susan B. Anthony, and Margaret Sanger, she believed in herself and fiercely embraced the one and only doctrine that feminism need sanction...Freedom.So how does this translate into modern day idealism? After all, it’s no longer about the right to vote, the right to life, or equality in the workplace.Well, the feminazis would have you believe that to be a feminist means adopting a rigid set of standards and then defending them with the ferocity and zeal that only the very conflicted er, I mean, convicted can muster. It means excluding those who don't live up to those standards in an effort to preserve their dubious integrity and tenuous superiority. They like to assert themselves as free thinkers and defenders of equality, when in reality, they are simply using a convenient label to validate and codify their own choices. They do not celebrate or embrace the gift of choice itself, but belittle those not in keeping with their own narrow view of womanhood. They do us a disservice by robbing us of the freedom our forbearers fought so hard to win. Thanks to feminism, I am assured of the value of my choice, For me, it is not a movement, or a belief system, or a lifestyle. It is the simple freedom to choose. It is the lack of any preconceived ideas about what a woman should be, and do and aspire to, as well as the knowledge and conviction that she can be, and do, and aspire to anything her heart desires.Thank you Elizabeth, Elizabeth, Susan and Margaret. Your sacrifice has made the world a better place for women, even if some have yet to realize it's about choosing your own destiny, rather than being a slave to a cause. thanks to Blog Antagonist

Niagara Falls

So we went to niagara Falls for a hockey Tourny (Danielle's Team) it was AWESOME, had a great time and not just at the games. Although I almost lost my voice. it was great. Won the first 3 games and lost the last one in a bitter conflict. We (Mom D, Heather and I) went down a day early (Thurs) to go shop in the states. OMG did we ever spend a lot of money. I baught some great clothes. the deals were wonderful, but we sure as hell were tired on thurs night. on fri the team showed us and so did Dad. D,H and I got kicked out of the Nice hotel and went to the Comfort Inn on clifton hill with the Team.......... the Ladies Won their friday night game, Awesome, and fri night we went out partying!!! omg what fun the Boston Pizza on Clifton Hill turns into a Night Club there it was great. they have video games there and a hockey shot game, the guys were playing and doing ok, one of the girls on the team Ashley has a wicked shot so we got her to give it a shot......... lol...... the guy that we were talking to said she had to do better than him he did 11% accuracy and his speed was 55mph on beginner, He put it on intermediate for Ashley and she got a 15% accuracy and 73 MPH!!! she kicked his ass. Heather and I yelled ourselves horse cheering her on it was great. One of the other giirls almost got into a fight so we knew it was time to go home. We got into the hotel room at around 3 am I think. Saturday Morning I got woken up at 7:30 AM by our other roomie for a smoke ( we were taped out) D and H had gone for a 3 hour walk and got lost ( another story) to buy smokes so she had some, we grabed coffee and a smoke each and hedded out. Mom and dad came by and we hedded out to breaky. after breaky we walked and walked and walked fisited the fally and walked the entire pathway then walked back to M&D hotle room up a 90 degree incline lol ong what a walk, beautiful just beautiful. the girls played 2 games that night and won both. After the games D,H,Ash and I went over to mom and Dad's Hotel and chilled cause Ash was going to kick someones ass ( she was pissed(another,another story)) we Dropped Ash off and went to bed. Sun Morning the girls lost the game, THAT should of been CALLED!!!!!!! the other team went to the wrong arena then took their time getting to the one we were at, even made a timms run!!!!! FUCK THAT anyways the team got mad and lost the game before they went on the ice. then we hedded home and chalked it up to a great weekend had a great time and got closer to my fav ppl on the team. it was great and I have a new wardrobe to account for it
Till next time
N

so I'm looking at going back to school full time. Kinda scary kinda cool. I just don't know if I can do it I mean Math and science is NEVER my strong suit and I want to go University for Nursing. UNIVERSITY!!!!! I have to do a Uni. Prep course first and in this course I have to do things like English which I know I can do but I also have to do Chem. and Calcules. god I don't think I can do it, biology I can do but I'm not sure about the rest. I'm not smart enough for this. I was really excited about the idea of going back to school but now that I'm doing my research I'm just not sure anymore. well no one comes here so I'm pretty sure no one will reply all the better if I don't go threw with it then no one will know I failed

ok so I'm not dead.......... Now that that is out of the way I will say I'm sorry for not posting in soooo long but I had nothing to say oddly enough. But now I will say that Vaykay was fun. Had a great time shopping, traveling, Eating ( great food in Quebec!!).
Oh and of course the Grandparents are great, Hale and hearty. More even tempered than I remember and nicer than I remembered!!!!! but as always I love them. Now on to other news I'm dating again!!! Yea me!! Men this time not boys. again yea me!! on anddddddd the biggest news My Cuz is going to be a Daddy. YES my fav cuz is going to be a daddy and My Other Fav Cuz ( his wife) is going to be a mommy!!!!!!! OMG they are going to be great parents I can't wait to se JR ( as he is being called) its going to be soooooo much fun I'm soooo happy for them, all their trying is going to pay off. Kate much Luv and if you need to bitch I'm here and Mark stop worrying all will be ok I mean look how you turned out!!!! Kate good luck!!!!!!! OXOXOXOXOXO


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Much Love guys

Vay Kay

ok so I haven't posted for a while but that's cause I had nothing to say. Ce la vie
so the BIG news now is that it is 14 days till vay kay and I am counting!!!!
Mom Danielle (the lil sis) and I are going away for about 10 to 14 days, I am so excited I can hardly sit still.
My first actual vacation in about 4 years WOW!
we are going to visit the Grandparents in Quebec!!
with a stop over in Quebec City!! Should be fun!! We (Danielle and I ) are trying to convince Mom to come out club hopping with us for kicks. What a laugh. With the shopping and the scenery is promises to be an excellent time. I haven't seen my grandparents in about 4 years and am really looking forward to it.
Although My Grandfather (Papere) is really sick with bladder cancer and my mom says that this is the last time I will ever see him, so really this is my chance to say goodbye.
I'm happy about that though cause I didn't get to say good bye to my Dad's parents (back in Newfoundland) so this is something I need.
Plus the shopping is going to be outstanding!!!!!!
I'll drop a note before I go between bouts of packing, un packing, and repacking
ciao for now