the Sadness looms
Ok so don't get me wrong I am VERY happy being single AGAIN!! and have nothing against happily married couples( ie. mark and Kate and my Mom and Dad) but for FUCK SAKES I want mine. Healthy agression breath in and out, ahhhhhh nope didn't work, ok so it is easier to be angry than sad but shit, here I am again Single again, home AGAIN, and feeling very lonely. Now this is a better lonely that being in a couple and lonely I know that feeling too, like your the only one there out of the 2 of you, the person can be right beside you or in a room full of people and be lonely, I know these lonelys. But this lonely is diffrent. My Mom says that I am in Love with the idea of being in love but I don't care I just want someone to love me. Ok so it could be Hormones, ie mood swing, but then how come I feel like I am in a room full of people and no one can hear me screaming at the top of my lungs.
And I am good. ok so I needed to bitch and moan for a min. Oh woe is me and all that shit. any of you that Know me knows that I am never sad for long. Basically a happy go lucky girl with a touch of crazy for good luck.
Ok So start as you mean to go on, always good advice.
An incredably Smart Lady once told me " Don't waste the Pretty" she happens to be one of my favourite people in the world, She is also Married to a Smart man who's main smart move was marring Her ( sorry Mark)
ok so I bitched and calmed and and gushed
Thanks for your patience.
one last thing
" Know Thyself"
inscribed on the temple of Apollo at Delphi
sorry I just love that quote
posted by Naomi @ 7:49 p.m.
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2 Comments:
Hey Nugget,
I am sorry that your are going through this but if it makes you feel better you are exactly where your should be on the healing track. The loneliness, sadness and the ubshakable funk is exactly what you should be feeling. It will only last for a short time and you will be moving onto happier days.
Although I may not like to admit this Mark is right. That this time to figure out who you are. What you want from yourself and your life. I suggest reading the book, "He's just not that into you". It is where I got the "don't waste the pretty". I read it and it's good. It really helps demostrate men and relationships that are unhealthy and why we stay. It's an easy read and really you don't feel much like doing anything right now so read the book.
We love you peaches.
Kate :o)
Hi there, just thought I stop by and give my 2 cents worth. Take your time and let it find you and in the mean time find out what truly makes you happy, sad and indifferent. If you continue to chase it you will end up maaried with kids, divorced, onto another and another kid and then all by yourself raising them..ah shit that's me! Sorry about that but in reality when I let it find me,hmmmm it was ahhhh so good and comfy! Take care sweetie! It will find you!
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